Most of you guys now that my dad passed away 3/24/18 an entire year so, Today will be an entire year since my dad passed away wow it feels like it happened just yesterday without him. But he is not gone he is still here in my heart and nobody will ever tell me he is gone forever. But without my dad I probably would have never been able to make this far in life. I have had doubts on life like everywhere I go I feel like I... Show more
Most of you guys now that my dad passed away 3/24/18 an entire year so, Today will be an entire year since my dad passed away wow it feels like it happened just yesterday without him. But he is not gone he is still here in my heart and nobody will ever tell me he is gone forever. But without my dad I probably would have never been able to make this far in life. I have had doubts on life like everywhere I go I feel like I don't belong like people would just bring me down or something. My dad has always stood by my side and told me that nobody can bring you down without your consent. All my life I have been called Dora (Go ahead laugh) and he told me that all they want out of you is your reaction so don't but I would always give them a reaction until 7th grade(Still in 7th grade) when I stared to wear bandannas and this boy on the bus said I looked like Dora from the hood and he said that he meant it in a nice way and I was like how is that suppose to be nice and he said well Dora is cute but you are way better than cute then I remembered what my dad told nobody can bring you down without your consent and after that I have not given anybody a reaction. My dad is still by my side no matter how bad I tell myself he is not I know he will always be there with me. He has always been there for me from when I was born until now and he has not let me down. He will be there to pick me up if I fall (with the words he told me). I never knew how much you could miss someone until you really have lost them for good and you will never be able to see them again but only in pictures and on their grave (My dads grave is custom made so he has a picture of him on it). But even if he is gone he did leave one thing for his family before he left and that was his LOVE. He didn't leave this world thinking to himself I was a horrible Father he left this world thinking he was the best Father he would always be there for his children. He left the world Knowing his kids would miss him knowing they will have to find away to make it through this world knowing that he was gone. No matter how much I miss him I know he didn't leave this world for me to cry forever he would want me to live my life to the fullest.
This is a little message for my dad:
Without you here is so hard we all miss you deeply I don't even know what to do without you here anymore, You would always call us and ask us how our day was. I would always come to you saying that when can we see each other again because I would want to go camping.
Here are two "Poems":
For someone who meant some much and loved by all he knew who left behind a trail of tears and precious memories,We loved the sunshine in his smile and kindness heart but heaven saw that he was tired which meant we had to part, And now it's his special day dear angles, hear my prayer please guard him with your gentle wings and tend him with care, For he was someone wonderful and words just can't convey how much we wish that he was here once more, with us today
I can't tell you daddy how many tears I've cried since I was told my precious dad had died, It seems so impossible although I know it's true as everything reminds me of you, I can still hear your laughter and see your smiling face I would have lost my sanity if not for gods saving grace, I have to close this letter now, But this is not goodbye for you will forever be with me in my heart and mind.
WE ALL MISS YOU DAD, WE LOVE YOU, NO MATTER HOW BAD IT HURTS TO EVEN THINK THAT YOU ARE GONE, BUT LIKE I SAID THIS IS NOT GOODBYE YOU WILL BE IN MY HEART AND MIND FOREVER!!!!!!
I love what you put in your About Me. The world has come to be a terrible place where there are bullies, diseases, mental challenges, murders and rapes, depression, death, crime, abuse, war, violence, and judgements. I wish the world did not have these things but, sadly, it does. It's good to know that other people feel the same way I do about the many faults in our world as we know it today.